till june | Setting The Barre

It took till (nearly) June to write down about Blue Till June, however alas, right here we're.

When the ultimate (metaphoric) curtain dropped on our season closing program, I used to be consumed by teary celebrations of a veteran dancer’s retirement bow. It wasn’t till just a few moments later that I felt the pang of lacking this ballet.

It’s regular to overlook a superb ballet when the run is over, particularly the type that brings the forged collectively to inform an intricate human story via a few of the finest music ever recorded. However this time the curtain hit the stage additional laborious as a result of the looks of ballets like this one feels rarer than ever.

The little I’ve written on this weblog just lately has been decidedly melancholy- I hope it’s not bringing you down! Generally when good issues cross via your physique for a short time, it makes their absence really feel stronger, and the battle inside you ever extra fiery. I’ve been residing on this psychological area of lacking issues earlier than they're over, maybe as a result of I'm feeling the necessity for some change in my life. However what sort of change?

A lot of the change that has occurred in my life has been via pure development. Certain, there have been just a few abrupt, stunning shifts in circumstance. However most have been a sluggish development of targets, laborious work, and progress. I’ve not often felt an itch to change- this unfamiliar nagging feeling within the pit of my abdomen. They at all times let you know to “listen to you gut” however by no means let you know fairly how you can decipher the incoherent whines warbles. That half is as much as you.

A change in environment? A shift within the day by day nouns: Individuals, locations, issues? What precisely does that little voice in me have to let my pure development keep it up unencumbered? How can I be certain? How will all of it work? And when?

For now, I don’t know. For now, I’ll be looking out. For June, I’ll be listening inward and searching outward.

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